Making love to the devil we know
I'm inspired to write! I hope this is going to be gooood...... It draws on a very vulnerable, honest conversation with a male, a book The Big Leap by Gay Hendricks, Dr. Kelly Brogan's post (again) on Existential Kink - Why it Hurts so Good, my own explorations, an e-mail I got earlier from high-performance coaches and Tedx speakers on developing emotional mastery, and the Orphan spirit card I pulled out (again). I wanted to escape myself .... work, wine, masturbation, you name it, but I stayed. I sat with my feelings, understood them, and realized they were not the reality. The reality I am creating is on the other side of this experience. The way I will choose to deal with this will be the way I'll deal with the rest of my life. Are we addicted to the devil we know? The pain that is so familiar? I agreeeeeee!!!! Not only do humans oscillate between running away from pain and toward pleasure, but we actually love both ends of the spectrum for a good while! How long we can